For the first time in this pregnancy I feel real regret and I feel selfish for wanting another child, not for the pain me and Gary are feeling - we're adults and we'll deal with it somehow - but for the girls and for this amazing baby, kicking away inside me now. How much pain will my baby have to endure on the long journey to fix his or her heart? It has such a long and hard fight ahead, I truly hope it is up for the battle.