some days...

I feel like I could cope if my baby dies. Our life won't be empty, we'll have each other and we'll have our two amazing girls to keep us busy and happy. People lose babies everyday, of course I'll cope.

But on other days I wonder how I'll cope, how will I manage to get up every day, how will I manage to look at my friend's babies and not think of what I have lost and I worry that I will spend the rest of my life mourning for the baby I lost.