Thursday, April 02, 2009

This week, I feel good. And this needs to be celebrated :-)
You have two amazing sisters and, despite all their squabbles and fights and refusals to do anything I want at all unless it involves watching tv or making cakes, they are my life and they keep me going on my darkest of days. A cuddle from them can make even the darkest clouds go away.

This week has been a big week for Lucy, she had her birthday party at the farm last weekend. It was a fantastic fun and sunny day. You were missed incredibly but the smiles on the girls faces just said it all. Lucy turns 5 this weekend and I just don't know where those 5 years have gone. It is also a reminder that, in many ways, my broken heart is never truly going to heal - I so wish we were able to have you here for your birthdays.

Lucy also learnt to swim this week - she did 3 lengths in the little pool all by herself. She was so exhausted she burst out crying at the end!

Our family life is a bit chaotic and, at times, frantic and emotional but it is a family of love and support and cuddles andfun and life. You would have enjoyed being with us, your sisters would have teased you rotten but you would have loved them for it. I would do anything just for one more cuddle.
If I could have a Groundhog day I would go back to the Wednesday, when your sisters met you and I got to wash your hair and your face. I couldn't hold you because of all the wires but this was the next best thing. These memories I will hold with me forever. I love you, my little gorgeous Jamie. I am so glad you came into our lives, even if your visit with us was brief.


Blogger Janice (5 Minutes for Mom) said...

Oh my word! I am sooooo sorry for your tragic loss! What a loving, wonderful mother you are! {{{HUGS}}}

6:46 PM  

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